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I go to the Dr on a few hours to find out the results of all the tests I had taken before I start a Dr led diet and weight loss program. I’m really nervous to find out the results. Part of me hopes for nothing wrong and then the other part wants a reason [...]

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This holiday weekend was pretty good overall. Friday and Saturday were great. I could have traded Sunday in for something better.
First Master and I got to really go at each other sexually and I was hungry for it all. I did a striptease and blow job for him in the living room which he said [...]

I went from basic blahs on Friday to full blown depression this weekend. I have battled depression several times in the past and am taking St. John’s Wart to try and balance my moods a bit better. This episode has hit me hard.
It’s all related to my body image I think. I am feeling really [...]

If you’ve been reading my blog you know that I St John’s Wart has been keeping my moods in check and balancing out the lows and highs so that I’m happier longer and less stressed with situations that I can’t change. I stopped taking them about 3 weeks ago without telling Master.
Since then there has [...]

Dear Master,
It’s almost Christmas and I think I may have found my happy thoughts again. I’m sorry you had to endure a long bout of depression and crankiness. I’ve felt pretty good the past few days. The stirring of my sexual desire is definitely a good sign. I’ll be ravaging you soon enough I [...]

Let me start off with a diet week in review since I didn’t do that yesterday. This is week 5 if you are keeping track and I’m way off the diet trail. I weighed in at 315 today. That’s back to the starting point again. I have a few reasons for this and I can [...]

Life isn’t so perfect here in Master’s house. I’ve been down a lot lately. I’ve slacked on all of my rules and duties to Master. I’m having problems taking orders and not really doing anything for myself either. You can blame it on whatever you’d like; but it has to stop. Now I’ll be the [...]

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It would look nice if I answered my own questions now wouldn’t it?
Master and I have always been a D/s relationship.  He’s not the first relationship I’ve had but the first D/s one; truly. Reflecting back on the way I was raised and the way I thought a relationship should be I’ve never been more [...]

Master has been wanting to take me to see the fireworks for the 4th of July and all I have to do is look up when they are. He wants me to be happy because lately I’ve not been. So you’d think that I ran over to the news website to look up the next [...]

A bout of depression Monday night has me working on my diet again. I just couldn’t take the fact that I was losing weight and then stopped and now I just have to face that the diet wagon is right in front of me again. I’ve joined SparkPeople.com to see how that support/community goes. I’ve [...]

I’m cramping like you couldn’t believe today. I almost vomited during work today.. not once, but twice. I feel so icky. I have had a nasty headache all day and as Master puts it, “You look terrible.” Yeah, I look and feel terrible. Great.
So how do I plan on serving Master this weekend when I [...]

In my previous post I wrote about an essay that I read and am thinking about. Yesterday was a good example of what not to do.
I got up in what I thought was a good mood and then I read my email from the client that I’m doing the site for. His email made me [...]

Master and I have been discussing my diet lately. Well, it’s more like I’ve been discussing it with him. You see that this summer I’ve plateaued and been stuck just above 300 for 4 months now. It’s very agrivating and I’d like to get going again. I know that most of it is loss of [...]

I’m getting better. I had a bit of normalcy today. I was handed my next job for my freelance work, and since I’m allowed to use the computer for work, I worked as best I could today. It felt good to be able to do something normal, something that felt like me, and not some [...]

I find myself just beginning the sentence that is my punishemtn for wrongdoing. I am miserable and bored. Hours have passed slowly as I contemplate my rebirth. There has to be a rebirth after a wrong so severly recognized as this. The effects on Master and our relationship are huge.
I have to start at square [...]

I’m depressed, and more than just slightly. I’m caught between bouts of crying and sleeping with a disinterest in all things around me. Interesting enough Master asked me if my good subbie routine would fade when I’m not depressed anymore. I guess I am more attentive and behave when I am like this. I don’t [...]

I have a problem. It’s serious and I’m ready to face it head on and see if I can do something about it.
About 6 months ago I started to change. My body and mind stopped being turned on by the things it used to. I stopped being horny. I stopped fantasizing about anything, I [...]

I’m depressed. I’ve spent all day on a short fuse and feeling like the world is collapsing in on itself. It could be a number of things bothering me. I am done with school; school has been my routine for over 6 years and now I don’t have to look forward to going back anymore. [...]