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I’m a stats whore. I love checking my stats almost 3 times a day (maybe more). I’ve watched my stats fall quite drastically since January. I’m not sure what has changed in my writing to cause it, but I know that I have a regular following and I have readers and commenters that I love. [...]

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Master had me take a sleeping pill last night to help me sleep. I didn’t stay asleep as I had hoped but I think the sleep I did get was more restful. I don’t feel as tired today. Thank God.
Master and I have started a bit of a sexual banter with each other. This is [...]

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

I’ve been developing a submissive code of ethics for myself to help give me long term goals and a focus. I feel it will bring about change in me that perhaps I can’t see yet. As I develop each one listed below I will get more detailed as to how they help me in my [...]

I’m going to ShibariCon, I’m going to ShibariCon! Yes, I know I’ve posted before about going, but this time it’s official; I’ve paid the registration, Master has already been registered for a month, the hotel reservation has been made and all we need to do is save our pennies so that we can afford it [...]

Well, it’s official. Master is registered for ShibariCon 2008 and I will be by the end of the month! Then we have the train ticket to get and we can save money for the hotel and other entertainment! Oh god I’m so excited.
I’ve gotten to really love rope, and I know that I will enjoy [...]

As we both already know, I am not naturally submissive. I don’t have the need to serve and please everyone all the time and worst of all I don’t stay in the right mindset to please you all the time either. It’s a balancing act of love and trust and desire for you that brings [...]

From My Bottom Smarts Spanko Brunch: What traits make a great spanker?
A great spanker is as unique and individual as the spankee. When I was first exploring BDSM I couldn’t tell you the difference between one person’s play style and another. Now I can see it within moments of their first strike.
The traits I see [...]

I can with all confidence say that I am submissive. I may have lost my way for awhile and it did affect our relationship severely. You ask me again what makes me submissive and I really can’t find anything more to add to what I have already said once before. To reiterate them here; my [...]

I’ve come to the understanding that I am a blog addict. Master mentions all the time that I am constantly reading blogs. With ease I have them all in my RSS reader so that I don’t have to click the 50+ links on my sidebar everyday. The new information comes to me. Now most of [...]

Reward this week if I reach 60 mins exercise: $5 towards new sofa/futon ($245 to go)
Monday 11-5

Calories: 1923
Water: 65 oz.
Exercise: 0 minutes

Today I was off balance emotionally. I felt like I couldn’t get enough done, even though I accomplished almost everything on my to do list. I didn’t eat a healthy dinner (I had 3 [...]

I’m sitting here feeling a bit off for today. Not really sure why, but Master has noticed that I’m agitated. I just can’t relax! I don’t feel like I have a lot to say really.
This weekend Master and I are staying in a whirlpool suite I’m sure that we will have lots of [...]

The following story was a dream I had last night that has carried throughout the day to be several very nice conversations and fantasy reliving with Master. It wouldn’t actually ever happen, as Master and I are devotedly monogamous but it was a hot dream nonetheless.
I enter a rather smallish room and am greeted by [...]

Well folks, I’m doing good. Master has commented a couple times about how relaxed I appear. I don’t feel as stressed as I usually am. Either I’m getting over this hurdle or the St John’s Wart is doing the trick. I’d like to think I’m doing this on my own, but a bit of natural [...]

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This weekend is going to be a focus on rules weekend. Hopefully it will be a smooth transition to what I want to be all the time. I’m going to work on getting 75% or better of my rules done correctly all weekend. I have to work overtime tomorrow so I am going to do [...]

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Dear Master,
Stupid tidbit: Today’s date is a palindrome 70107!
Now on to this week, which by our standards has been all hell. Work was so stressful I don’t know how you put up with me; except that I am so grateful that you did. You held me at all the right moments, you let me speak [...]