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I have been battling a disinterest in sex lately. I feel terrible that I haven’t really felt like being touched or touching at all. I’m sure there are outside influences as to why I’ve been so antisex lately. I’ve had to sit and figure it out, because I’m tired of feeling like something is wrong [...]

It’s amazing how good I feel today when I’ve been doing practically nothing. My radio show this morning was classical music and I am surprised to be asked to do it again next Sunday. I didn’t expect people to appreciate it. I enjoyed it, and so there is a new show on Sundays. Hopefully my [...]

I went out and spent most of the day with friends of mine from school. It was great. I wandered the stores, and chatted about all sorts of things. Master is the center of conversation for me on most occasions but I was relaxed and talked about anything. We discussed next semester where I am [...]

Monday blahs. Today I woke up to another week of stress and worry. I’m getting so tired of this. Nothing I can do about it though. I will learn to get used to it until we are free of worry and stress. Summers always seem to be like this.
I worked on a few floggers today. [...]

Well, so if you’ve noticed my recent posts have been short, whiny and not too interesting to read. For that I apologize. My life truely has been interesting, and I should be happy to share it with my blog readers, and especially my Master… whom has been quite disappointed in my recent bout of [...]

Today’s forum was subspace and it went great. We all talked and shared a lot of things with each other. I know I learned a lot. I feel more secure in my life, my choice of submission. I learned that there are different facets of subspace and that everyone experiences it differently. I also learned [...]

So, today I helped Master get the CROP website up and functioning http://www.crop-ia.com . I’m pretty excited to have this done and well… I can help do other things now. I have an outline for my paper done, going to start writing it tomorrow morning, and I have most of my presentation prepared for Thursday’s [...]

It’s been awhile since I said anything worthwhile, and I don’t know if today will be just as boring. I have a ton of work ahead of me this week. I have a paper, 2 presentations and a ton of reading. I just don’t know where to start and I’d like to work on some [...]

I say these same words more often than I should. Why do I constantly need to find motivation. I should be prefectly happy just doing them. I am so damn lazy that sometimes I wonder what good am I really?
I haven’t done anything around the house in 2 days. I have been extremely lazy and [...]

My creative streak came back again last night. I sat down with my box of materials and made 3 floggers, a slapper and have plans for another cat o nine to start later on. The floggers I made, one is out of Mariner’s twine, and so is very soft, the other two are nasty buggers. [...]

Today my discussion forum was hacked. I am not computer saavy enough to know if it is able to be resurrected. I may try again another time, but right now I’m just pissed.
–luna

There is a time in everyone’s relationship where you get a realization you are with the right person. I reached that point today when Master took me in his arms to comfort me during a nasty period of cramps. I felt so relaxed at that point and so comforted by the fact that my love [...]

Today was very challenging to me. I was testy, grumpy and not someone you wanted to hang around. I’m not sure why I am this way other than hormone levels, but I can’t blame it all on that. Perhaps I am needing time away, and with no money and no where to go, I’m beginning [...]

That essay test yesterday was very challenging. I hope I did a good job. I filled up the entire bluebook. Now that the stress is gone from that test I can relax a bit. WRONG I have so much homework this weekend, I will be running hard just to catch up. Thank god Spring Break [...]

Today is the first Dom/sub forums that I will be co running. I am pretty excited about a good turn out. We don’t have an RSVP set though, so who knows how many will appear for the discussion. I have done a bit of preparation for tonight so that I know a few different viewpoints [...]

This blog is beginning to look like a depression party. I am constantly finding things out about myself that I really don’t like, wish to change, hate that I did or am disappointed in the outcome. Lately, as in starting last night, I felt really bad about the rules list that Master had given me [...]

This weekend provides me with a lot of things to do, and yet I really can’t get motivated to do them. I have this big essay to do for Thursday only 2 pages in and I’m stuck. I guess I’ve been looking at it too long. I have 2 quizzes on Tuesday that I haven’t [...]

** What book, movie, or website most influenced your first impressions of what slavery was about? How has that changed as you started living as a slave? Two Hearts One Soul gave me the most insight to what living as a slave would be like. You can still find the beautiful pages at: http://www.twoheartsonesoul.com. I [...]

Trials and challenges always drain me of energy. I feel so exhausted today.
The munch Saturday went well and afterward Master and I went bowling with azriel. It was a lot of fun. I did blow out my right knee again, so I’m in a bit of pain. There was an incident near the end of [...]

Boy was yesterday a bunch of up an downs. I finally got my refund check, so I can get my bills paid. I will feel relieved when I can get the checks sent on Monday. Then of course I feel anxiety because the refund just isn’t enough to live on and pay the bills. I [...]