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From Submissive Journal Prompts: When was the last time you were punished? How have things changed since then?
First I should remind readers that I define punishment and discipline as different things. In this post, I’m talking about punishment.
The last time I was punished was well over 2 years ago. I hope to never have to [...]

As an incentive to see how I’m doing I’ve readded a ticker to my sidebar. You can watch how I progress to my goal for Shibaricon next year. I hope to be 50 lbs+ lighter by then. Here’s to good progress and positive results!
I’ve been exercising as scheduled with Master’s help. The access to the [...]

Being that I’m a masochist, I love pain. I’ve never really thought about it or analyzed what that means really, but reading other people’s blogs has always helped me see that saying I’m masochist is just another huge personal term in BDSM as a whole. So, to think it though, this is what being a [...]

I’ve just finished Kushiel’s Justice which if you have read the Kushiel’s Legacy Series you will want to pick this up. I’ve been waiting for 5 months for it come out in paperback and the day finally came. I love it and was doubly excited to see that there is a finally book coming soon [...]

Master spoke to me yesterday about this blog. He said that the last few posts have all been about the same thing; how content I am in my submission and my progress. He said he’s been pondering removing the blogging requirement from my rules. I’m not sure why it disturbs me that he’s thinking of [...]

During our munch this past Saturday we talked about training; specifically about training a submissive undergoes. I used myself as example quite a bit because I know what I’ve been through to process the training I am constantly under. From the humble beginnings of please and thank yous to opening doors, the proper apology into [...]

When I reflect on where I’ve been and where I’m going I begin to wonder how in the world I got where I am. Five years ago seemed like such a long time ago. I was not on this journey that I am now on. I wasn’t even able to explore more than in front [...]

It’s really quite amazing that I have so much to say all the time about my submission to Master and the beauty of that is it continues to change and grow and extend into all facets of my life. Even when our daily life involves doing the dishes and fixing dinner I can feel my [...]

I’m not doing so well keeping up with my blogging rule. I know that it will end up in the punishment book to be atoned for on Sunday. I was supposed to write a letter to Master on Sunday and I didn’t blog yesterday either. Now I’m writing to kinda make up for yesterday even [...]

I hate bad news, but I’ve got some sitting in my back pocket that I’ve postponed sharing with you all. Master and I will not be going to Shibaricon. We just couldn’t come up with all the funds we need. I’m still down about and hopefully we can start saving early to attend next year. [...]

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

In previous posts I’ve talked about the speech training that Master has me learning. He’s finally come closer to what he wants me to do, and I’ve been practicing it as much as possible.
It’s been a hard trip, but I’ve slowly been changing how I say things to make it more like seeking permission instead [...]

We had a very stressful talk last night. It involved what happens in scenes with us because almost 50% of them end sooner than one of us would like them to. We have crashed really hard when this happens. The issue has two parts. For the longest time I just attributed it to being new [...]

It’s very important to make Master sexually happy at every possible moment. I have a bit of learning to do in this department. I’ve always hesitated when it comes to teasing Master’s cock with my mouth and hands. I love how he can make me feel with it, so it’s my turn to show him [...]

Master would like to use my ass whenever he wants. He also has a plan to have me wear butt plugs on a regular basis to remind me of my place and prepare me for more frequent anal sex and play. A butt plug will allow me to relax better, faster, easier when he wishes [...]

Manners is something that good parents are supposed to instill in their children. Each family believes in and teaches different manner rules. I grew up in a household that really didn’t empahsize manners at all. How sad and depressing, right? Well, now I have my chance to polish up what I knew and learn (re-learn) [...]

Well, it’s official. Master is registered for ShibariCon 2008 and I will be by the end of the month! Then we have the train ticket to get and we can save money for the hotel and other entertainment! Oh god I’m so excited.
I’ve gotten to really love rope, and I know that I will enjoy [...]

The goals of any submissive are as varied as the relationship as to which they tend. I’ve been given the task of naming the goals I currently have within my submission and then explain how I plan on working towards them. A daunting task indeed! I’ve really not given it much thought honestly before now [...]

Each relationship that we pursue is going to be unique and different. We can not compare one person’s dynamic with another’s even if we can agree that it is under the term of BDSM that we hold this relationship. In a recent comment on the post Speech Training there came up a need for me [...]

I’ve come to the understanding that I am a blog addict. Master mentions all the time that I am constantly reading blogs. With ease I have them all in my RSS reader so that I don’t have to click the 50+ links on my sidebar everyday. The new information comes to me. Now most of [...]