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When I reflect on where I’ve been and where I’m going I begin to wonder how in the world I got where I am. Five years ago seemed like such a long time ago. I was not on this journey that I am now on. I wasn’t even able to explore more than in front [...]

In previous posts I’ve talked about the speech training that Master has me learning. He’s finally come closer to what he wants me to do, and I’ve been practicing it as much as possible.
It’s been a hard trip, but I’ve slowly been changing how I say things to make it more like seeking permission instead [...]

It feels good to see Master getting his thoughts sorted out and that he has honored me by posting here. I’m so proud that he has claimed me and is helping me become who I’ve always wanted to be; comfortable in myself.
My exercise routine has just started but knowing that if I don’t exercise everyday [...]

So a little while ago luna and I celebrated a year of her being collared by me. This seems like as good a time as any to start more intensive training in our relationship.
Most of you will probably think that 3 and a quarter years is a long time to wait before getting into the [...]

Tonight I am coloring my hair; at this very moment the creme is changing my hair from a dark brown to something auburn-ish. I haven’t colored my hair in over 4 years. I always had the perception that Master would want it natural. The fact that he went and helped me pick it out was [...]

Manners is something that good parents are supposed to instill in their children. Each family believes in and teaches different manner rules. I grew up in a household that really didn’t empahsize manners at all. How sad and depressing, right? Well, now I have my chance to polish up what I knew and learn (re-learn) [...]

As we both already know, I am not naturally submissive. I don’t have the need to serve and please everyone all the time and worst of all I don’t stay in the right mindset to please you all the time either. It’s a balancing act of love and trust and desire for you that brings [...]

I can with all confidence say that I am submissive. I may have lost my way for awhile and it did affect our relationship severely. You ask me again what makes me submissive and I really can’t find anything more to add to what I have already said once before. To reiterate them here; my [...]

Each relationship that we pursue is going to be unique and different. We can not compare one person’s dynamic with another’s even if we can agree that it is under the term of BDSM that we hold this relationship. In a recent comment on the post Speech Training there came up a need for me [...]

Not really the training as in what I’m supposed to say in a structured way but how my mood, attitude and behavior affect how I say things to Master. I’ve been all royal and uppity with him on many occasions and while he’s been strict reminding me that I’m not supposed to talk that way [...]

I’m so speechless! I got a wonderful thank you letter in my email this morning that had me feeling so very special. I’d like to share it with everyone and tell the person that sent it, “I’m honored, thank you.”
I came across your site trying to find answers to how I should be for and [...]

So…
It’s been one month since I set my resolutions. How am I doing you wonder? I’ve got the update. It’s not that great really, but there’s always progress to be made, ya know?
The Personal Growth resolutions:

Brushing my teeth isn’t going well. I do about twice a week *sigh* How gross I know. This month I [...]

Since Saturday I have felt like I am living a different life. I’d like to attribute it to the newness of my reinstated collar, the preparation for new rules and behaviors and the very close decision of full time employment with my current employer. I’m really being a good girl I think. Master said the [...]

I got news today that I will be starting work full time on a trial basis before the end of this month. I can’t wait! This is the news I have been anticipating for 2 months now, finally just one more hurdle and it will happen. Thank goodness! With the added hours will come more [...]

Well, so here it is… a preview of my resolutions for the coming year. I’ve been talking about these for a month, bouncing around in my head as to whether or not I should even set them and then what they should be and if they are decent goals. I have come to decide that [...]

So about 2 weeks ago I had an epiphany with the help of kaya’s wise words. Submission is hard work. The fact that I had constantly thought that Master wasn’t dominant enough turned the tables to I wasn’t submissive enough. I admit that it’s not a natural thing in me, and while many that may [...]

This is a current list of rules that I have to follow.
Speech Training:
He shall be called Master unless in vanilla public, then I use his given name. This is to include any time I am speaking with Master directly.
Use please and thank you liberally.

“Yes Master” is an appropriate response, not yeah, yup, [...]

I’m feeling a little better today. I’ve worked hard at paying more attention to Master and my emotions. I want to back up to normal self as soon as possible. Trust me though, I was and still am quite down at my loss of libido. I used to rival any man at the amount of [...]

I have a couple of concerns, neither of which are related to each other. The first is a possible medical concern that I will be looking into sometime this next week. The last time Master and I were going to be intimate, he couldn't find the string of my IUD. Well, after some poking he [...]

Frankly, I have to admit this is hard stuff. I have been only at the Speech training discussed in the previous post for a day and I feel like a parrot. I’m constantly saying Master, please and thank you following behind and least adhered to, but not the worst is my cursing. I’ve noticed that [...]