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It’s really quite amazing that I have so much to say all the time about my submission to Master and the beauty of that is it continues to change and grow and extend into all facets of my life. Even when our daily life involves doing the dishes and fixing dinner I can feel my [...]

I’m a stats whore. I love checking my stats almost 3 times a day (maybe more). I’ve watched my stats fall quite drastically since January. I’m not sure what has changed in my writing to cause it, but I know that I have a regular following and I have readers and commenters that I love. [...]

Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at luna’s Journey. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
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Sometimes when you are itching for some play it’s a very specific type of play that you want. In our relationship I’m free to ask for what I want, but Master does not have to comply. Today I asked Master for some helpless fuck whore time. I wanted to be bound so that I couldn’t [...]

I have a headache, which means that this post will either be rambling or so full of thought that you wouldn’t believe I had a headache. Either way I’m sure it will be enjoyable. Come along for the ride.
I’ve been doing a lot of reevaluating my life lately. How I wonder if I’m working the [...]

Master had me take a sleeping pill last night to help me sleep. I didn’t stay asleep as I had hoped but I think the sleep I did get was more restful. I don’t feel as tired today. Thank God.
Master and I have started a bit of a sexual banter with each other. This is [...]

Orgasm denial and control is a well documented activity online; you can find all sorts of thoughts and opinions, how-tos and what nots from anyone and everyone under the sun. I’m not intending to add any more new ideas to this topic. Here are, in my opinion, a couple of the better written essays out [...]

In previous posts I’ve talked about the speech training that Master has me learning. He’s finally come closer to what he wants me to do, and I’ve been practicing it as much as possible.
It’s been a hard trip, but I’ve slowly been changing how I say things to make it more like seeking permission instead [...]

People can come by and ask me questions about anything and I’ll try to answer them honestly and as best I can. I don’t consider myself an expert at all but I do have a pretty good grasp of some things. Here’s a question that was asked awhile back and my response.
I’m so glad I [...]

I’ve read a very good quote from an owner of a submissive who’s blog I read regularly. Kinky Little Girl was talking about punishment and how she let’s it continue to get to her after it’s over.
One of the earliest pieces of advice he ever gave me was, “Being a better submissive means learning to [...]

It never seems to work. I try to compartmentalize my diet and health changes and that blog just sits idle. I guess I really can’t keep more than one blog. It’s all me so why do I have to try to separate it. I guess I was just trying to sort out the boring stuff [...]

Manners is something that good parents are supposed to instill in their children. Each family believes in and teaches different manner rules. I grew up in a household that really didn’t empahsize manners at all. How sad and depressing, right? Well, now I have my chance to polish up what I knew and learn (re-learn) [...]

Well, it’s official. Master is registered for ShibariCon 2008 and I will be by the end of the month! Then we have the train ticket to get and we can save money for the hotel and other entertainment! Oh god I’m so excited.
I’ve gotten to really love rope, and I know that I will enjoy [...]

I’ve had to learn a lot about courtesy and respect since I met Master. I am ashamed to admit that my family was rude, obnoxious and crude. I picked it up and didn’t bat an eyelash when I treated people poorly. I was described by my best friend as being harsh and without tact. I [...]

Thank you for all the comments on the Thursday Question regarding restraints. They were fabulous to read!
I am a rope slut. I love the feel of rope binding me and restricting my movements. As soon as the rope touches my skin I get a sense of floating and happiness that I don’t get with any [...]

Yesterday was my one year anniversary of being collared. We hadn’t even noticed it until I saw the post in my memories sidebar area. I can’t believe a year has gone by. It feels like only a few months ago that he wrapped that piece of leather around my neck and I asked if I [...]

After putting my wrist braces on I prepared myself for what Master had planned.
He handed me a couple ear plugs and explained that not only was I going to be tied to the bed using our new tie down points, but I was going to be thrown into sensory deprivation.  He secured thatdamngag in my [...]

My submission resolutions are going to be where my hardest work is I think. Master has noted that he wants to be more strict and to get the rules I have adhered to better. I’ve been slacking and so has he. So my first goal is to improve my obedience to the rules he has [...]

Christmas has once again come to us with reminders to give, and love and share the joy of the season with others. Here at home, I have been a rather grinch this year. There are no Christmas decorations up, I have no tree to put my dad’s presents under. My gift to Master was something [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts:
List 5 things that you are grateful for in your life.
1. I’m grateful for my ability to change. Without the desire to make my life better and more fulfilling I would be stuck working at a dead end job with no happiness in my life. Since I’ve been able to change my [...]