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I have a headache, which means that this post will either be rambling or so full of thought that you wouldn’t believe I had a headache. Either way I’m sure it will be enjoyable. Come along for the ride.
I’ve been doing a lot of reevaluating my life lately. How I wonder if I’m working the [...]

Leatherstrap asks me:
I played with a lady tonite who set out very clearly that she wanted to play rough - in fact she wanted to be brought to tears - She had a safe word which she didnt call but as the session went on it became apparent that she wasnt well - I stopped [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts:
“What one has not experienced, one will never understand in print.” -Isadora Duncan
I began my journey into D/s and BDSM in online chat rooms; namely those on IRC (BDSM-Net and Bondage.com). I knew nothing of what the lifestyle would be for me, only the fantasy that I lived when I got home [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts:
List 5 things that you are grateful for in your life.
1. I’m grateful for my ability to change. Without the desire to make my life better and more fulfilling I would be stuck working at a dead end job with no happiness in my life. Since I’ve been able to change my [...]

Reward this week if I reach 60 mins exercise: $5 towards new sofa/futon ($245 to go)
Monday 11-5

Calories: 1923
Water: 65 oz.
Exercise: 0 minutes

Today I was off balance emotionally. I felt like I couldn’t get enough done, even though I accomplished almost everything on my to do list. I didn’t eat a healthy dinner (I had 3 [...]

Last night Master tied me up. He’s been practicing a new breast harness made purposefully for large breasts. It’s called a cupcake harness because the resulting breasts stick out like the tops of cupcakes beneath the rope. It’s quite a delicious feeling.
I have really found that I’m a rope slut in training; I guess. Just [...]

When I was just getting started in BDSM, I didn’t know a lot about safety. I didn’t screen possible play partners and I rarely set up safe calls. I blame it on ignorance or naiveness.
I went off alone late at night for what turned out to really be a booty call. I didn’t know [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts:
“‘Real isn’t how you are made,’ said the Skin Horse. ‘It’s a thing that happens to you…’
‘Does it hurt?’ asked the Rabbit.
‘Sometimes,’ said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. ‘When you are Real, you don’t mind being hurt…It doesn’t happen all at once,’ said the Skin Horse. ‘You become. It [...]

I have had the mother of all stressful days today. I actually spent the morning at work in a conference room crying because I was at my breaking point. My boss was on the way to do damage control and help me out. He’s such a great guy and seems to understand my personality perfectly. [...]

The Thursday Question last week was: “What has been the hardest thing for you to accept in your Dominance/submission?”
No one answered the question but I thought that this would make an excellent topic for today’s post.
The hardest thing for me to accept has been that I am not in control of a lot of things. [...]

Dear Master,
I’m so glad to see you getting better Master. I felt so bad to know that I had given you my cold. Thankfully you didn’t get it as bad as I had it.
You know I’m not looking forward to tomorrow when I get my punishment for breaking your rules. I will submit to it [...]

I’m feeling a lot better today. My cold has subsided; I just have the annoying crusty nose syndrome… anyone else think that’s worse than the runny nose to begin with? Ugh. I’m not tired all the time and Master even deemed it time to get back into sex! Yay me! Maybe by Saturday I’ll be [...]

I’m amazed at how I can go from not enough time in the day to get work done to having so much time on my hands that I’m inventing things to do so that I don’t get bored. I feel that this is just an adjustment period and I do feel that the time will [...]

Now that I have my rules laid out, I have to try to start following them. I know that the next few weeks are going to be rocky as I learn them, get used to them and be constantly reminded of things he has initiated. While I am more than ready, I’m also very nervous [...]

I’ve been a naughty girl. I hurt a really good friend and someone I look up to. The webmaster of Taking-It-Off took action that I most likely deserved. I’m not going into details and dredging up my mistakes. I hope that I can rebuild some sort of relationship that will be full of strength and [...]

Gratitude. I see it in Gratitude Tuesdays on blogs all over the web. I see it in cards and stories this time of year. Sadly, I rarely see it throughout the year; some reason it’s only now, when it’s “scheduled” or “planned”. I’ve been reflecting lately on what I’m grateful for and how I can [...]

I’ve been reading a new blog that is a branch off of another I’ve come to love reading. The training of His slut is the beginning of a new life for good girl… she is training to be a lifestyle submissive. This has brought me to more thinking about how my training down the [...]

After the activity from yesterday my body aches and my mental self feels released. I can say that yesterday something in me clicked right and I felt myself again. No longer did I feel a shell of myself satisfying Master’s needs. I was there in the moment and I wanted to please him as best [...]

I’ve begun to experience computer problems and while Master and I are sure it’s a hardware issue, we don’t have a clue as to what hardware it could be. We can’t afford to just swap pieces out as we try to diagnose so it may be that one day my computer will just die and [...]

–Begin Personal Rant–
Master has gotten into the habit of saying this quite often, at least this week. Now on a normal occasion where this would come in is if I had forgotten to say thank you, as I’m supposed to. Lately that “reminder” has come immediately after Master doing something for me. He doesn’t even [...]