BDSM is Love

You have to love it when someone has the guts to say something that really hits home for you. I’ve seen a lot of blogs out there with the submissive is pretty much whining that the Dom isn’t Dom enough and that they don’t give theme enough direction. Or the ones who say that they [...]

I’ve just finished Kushiel’s Justice which if you have read the Kushiel’s Legacy Series you will want to pick this up. I’ve been waiting for 5 months for it come out in paperback and the day finally came. I love it and was doubly excited to see that there is a finally book coming soon [...]

If you’ve been reading my blog you know that I St John’s Wart has been keeping my moods in check and balancing out the lows and highs so that I’m happier longer and less stressed with situations that I can’t change. I stopped taking them about 3 weeks ago without telling Master.
Since then there has [...]

Leatherstrap asks me:
I played with a lady tonite who set out very clearly that she wanted to play rough - in fact she wanted to be brought to tears - She had a safe word which she didnt call but as the session went on it became apparent that she wasnt well - I stopped [...]

It feels good to see Master getting his thoughts sorted out and that he has honored me by posting here. I’m so proud that he has claimed me and is helping me become who I’ve always wanted to be; comfortable in myself.
My exercise routine has just started but knowing that if I don’t exercise everyday [...]

I complain… a lot. Every time something is suggested or commanded I have to come back with a why, or I don’t feel like it or other some such reason. I’m sure for me that complaining is an active part of my everyday life. It’s an attempt at control. I don’t like the request or [...]

Sexual desire is something that I take for granted. I have it, I wax and wan and sometimes I can’t get enough. But what I have noticed is that I have problems asking for what I want. Like Master is just supposed to know that I’d like him to finger my asshole, or rub my [...]

From My Bottom Smarts
What do you believe constitutes “topping from the bottom?” Have you or your partner ever done this? If so, how was the situation handled? Are there occasions where “topping from the bottom” is acceptable or even desirable?
My definition of topping from the bottom is when the submissive begins to instruct the dominant [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts:
How do you feel about the idea of ‘breaking a slave’?
For me, the idea of breaking a slave goes against the natural progression of a submissive/slave. I perceive it as a forced breakdown of someone’s own will, their own attitude and sometimes their own thought process.
What generally results is a blank canvas [...]

I’m having problems with my diet program. Part of it is my fault but I really do think the other part is out of my control. First, I’m just not exercising when I have time. I like to put it off. and off. and off. Now I know that my eating is a lot better. [...]

Dear Master,
Not to seem too self centered but I think I did pretty good this week. I hope I can continue on this journey this week. I’ve been a lot more concious of what is going on around you and when you need attention. Right now I know it almost always seems like it is [...]

I wrote a poem to be submitted for the first game of the evening. Of course I won’t know if I won until I come back from my munch. Here’s the poem I submitted:
For a Cause
Strangers gather digitally
To raise money for charity.
No selfish gain;
A desire for change,
Blogs rise from nothing,
To spout poetry.
International friendship,
Searching for sponsorship.
Unusual [...]

I’ve had some very enlightening comments to my situation as of late. I do appreciate every comment I’ve gotten and they have really helped me see a few things about myself that just took someone looking in instead of me looking out.
I choose to be submissive; I guess that’s a harder journey than someone that [...]

Yesterday was a day from hell and a clawing my way back up to life here on earth. Master and I had plans to play. No different than any other time. Those of you that read my blog regularly know that sometimes we just don’t get to it, other times we have our problems. This [...]

Gratitude. I see it in Gratitude Tuesdays on blogs all over the web. I see it in cards and stories this time of year. Sadly, I rarely see it throughout the year; some reason it’s only now, when it’s “scheduled” or “planned”. I’ve been reflecting lately on what I’m grateful for and how I can [...]

I’m waiting for a new blog template. The precious and talented Mija is making me one all special. I’m giddy with excitement! When I get it I will change my blog immediately and then I doubt I will change it for a long while to come. She told me it should be done soon [...]

This is a neverending tale. I am a continuous disappointment in myself and my Master. I do have positive things in my life, but they seem so few and far between that I’m beginning to think that I’m not worth all this. Sometimes I wake up in the morning with all these intentions, hopes for [...]

I’ve been a very bad girl lately. It’s really inexcusable; as everything is with me lately. I’ve been disappointing, both to myself and to my love and Master. First, if you notice the date of this blog, I am quite late posting, as my rules state it is supposed to be every other day. It [...]

Continuing more on my code of ethics I’ve come to realize that there are submissive code of ethics out there on the net that seem all and good, but not very personal. A common one I see passed around is:
1. I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. I realize that [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts: “It is time that I….”
It is time that I work harder at pleasing Master. I know there are times that I am in independent luna mode and I don’t think about Master first. In fact lately there have been more and more luna time than there has been Master time. I’m [...]