I read a post from a LJ friend today that rang so true with me that I’d like to post a bit here and then talk about how it relates to my life. puzzle of PolyBDSMMadHouse said that,
when Sir is lenient, it undermines me, and makes me feel as if he doesn’t care about the [...]
This essay is a pretty old one, it was part of a punishment for not shaving… almost 3 years ago. It still is very true for me though, so I’m sharing it here. It’s making me think about how I’m following/not following the rules I have now and how I can work harder at succeeding [...]
(This was written a while ago, but rereading it sure helps me recenter.)
It’s always hard to figure out who you are as a person, I can’t say that I know everything there is to know about myself, but I am willing to give it a try to at least let you see who I think [...]
Master and I had a wonderful time yesterday with a friend of ours that we haven’t seen in near a year or more. We always learn from her even in casual conversation and it’s great getting to talk and be yourself around her. We talked about lifestyle things, the group we are all members off [...]
As Master and pepe’s angel so kindly pointed out, I seem to concentrate on the negative things in life and not the posititve. It’s not always been that way. I think it has a lot to do with my depressive state at the moment. I do know I have to change my thinking to improve [...]
Master and I have been discussing my diet lately. Well, it’s more like I’ve been discussing it with him. You see that this summer I’ve plateaued and been stuck just above 300 for 4 months now. It’s very agrivating and I’d like to get going again. I know that most of it is loss of [...]
I’m getting better. I had a bit of normalcy today. I was handed my next job for my freelance work, and since I’m allowed to use the computer for work, I worked as best I could today. It felt good to be able to do something normal, something that felt like me, and not some [...]
I would have been instructed to write in my blog yesterday had the interenet been available. It is finally up today and so I am backposting this entry that I handwrote yesterday. Thank you to everyone that is sending me support and kind words in this. It truely does help me stay focused and know [...]
I feel off today. I’m not sure 100% why. I’ve had a lot of thoughts going through my mind lately, not all of them good. Concerns that will get voiced when I’m ready to do so. I want to be sure that these concerns are founded in truth and not just emotional things.
I begin to [...]
I’m depressed. I’ve spent all day on a short fuse and feeling like the world is collapsing in on itself. It could be a number of things bothering me. I am done with school; school has been my routine for over 6 years and now I don’t have to look forward to going back anymore. [...]
Master and I have hit a crossroads of sorts. I’m not sure if it’s because I am lazy, he is lazy or some other factor. There are two separate issues that Master has brought up last night. I think I’m going to try to discuss both of them.
The first one is my current mood. Master [...]
Master came to me last night with a concern. It was a concern that has come up before but we have been unable to resolve it to either of our satisfaction. We do not play enough. Each for their own reason, but I know that it is craved and needed more often than we do [...]
I’m trying towards a goal. While Master and I are still not sure where we will end up, we are certainly having a lot of ups and downs, explorations and excitement on the way. We are a first time relationship, we have agreed to work into things slowly. I’d have to say that about every [...]
Ok, so I was a DJ for an internet radio station, now I’m not. The station manager said that I had an attitude with him at one point last week. I can’t say that I did, but what other people perceive is what happened. Of course no one choose to tell me till I show [...]
Master started that question as I sit here staring at a blank page, whinning about not having anything to say. “When you are hungry and you don’t know what to eat, do you then go on not eating indefinitely?” And so I sit here… because even though I don’t have anything to say, I will [...]
Submission by Choice: How to Work Your Way Back to Yourself
Submission has been called a gift. It has been said to be a natural characteristic. Submission is also a choice. When I first entered the lifestyle, no one would have mistaken me for a submissive. I am strong willed, commanding and independent. I have [...]
This one is a load o crock. BDSM is different to different people, different regions, nations and worlds. No one does BDSM the say way, thus there isn’t a known protocol followed amidst groups regionally let alone internationally. This also goes to say that Leather Houses that say they have been in existence and taught [...]
Submissive men are some of the strongest mental figures I know in the lifestyle. They are able to come to a Dominant and fully submit when the world around them tells him he should be strong and in control. They are able to take down the walls that they put up for the outside world [...]
So not true. If you take anything from my posts today, let it be that everyone is different and has different preferences. I have said that you don’t have to be into pain at all to be in BDSM. Everyone finds their niche. A couple of my friends in the scene are what I would [...]
It is believed that because BDSM isn’t widely accepted that the only people who participate are lower class, criminal types, secretive peoples and others that aren’t accepted in mainstream openly. This is far from true. The need to be involved in BDSM as a lifestyle or play style is in your blood, it is the [...]
I'm luna, KnyghtMare's submissive since 2004. I'm a BBW with brown hair and blue eyes. I've been married, separated, almost divorced now; living with my Master.
Master placed his permanent collar on me January 27, 2006. I'm learning and growing into the perfect submissive for him. I'm changing my behaviors, my attitude and my thought processes to become a better person.
This is an adult blog. If you get offended to talk of sex, sexuality and BDSM, please turn back now.
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