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I sit here in a countdown. As I’ve shared; I’m in some form of butt plug training, however without an appropriate butt plug that stays in place it’s quite a challenge. My ass muscles are playing ‘ins and outs’ with my plug in a never ending effort for comfort. I have 30 mins. I’m very [...]

Master and I played on Sunday night. It was a wonderful spanking. Nothing too complex. Just my ass, Master’s hand and a few other choice tools. I love it when he starts with his hands though, he remembers to rub my butt a bit in between spanks. It’s a sharp stinging pain that I find [...]

Well, it’s not what I hoped for but there is some good in people that is so touching. I have an acquaintance at work; the person who covers my job if I’m not there. She came and picked me up Monday and yesterday while my job was in the shop. I was able to work [...]

I’m still waiting. Waiting to hear if the client of my work contract wants to up my hours to full time. They had a meeting today where this was a key part of the conversation. My boss has not called me, it’s late and I don’t think I’ll hear anything until Monday. This is torture. [...]

It’s been a change to say the least! I am constantly aware of things I need to do before bed or I could get into some serious cane time (not good). I am almost always watchful for what Master may need or desire. Things may come together well.
We also attempted a small play session. The [...]

Since Saturday I have felt like I am living a different life. I’d like to attribute it to the newness of my reinstated collar, the preparation for new rules and behaviors and the very close decision of full time employment with my current employer. I’m really being a good girl I think. Master said the [...]

Dated: January 29, 2007
This is one day late. I have no excuse, I can only hope for your leniency. I didn’t even think about doing it. Opps!
I’ve been feeling really loved the past couple of days. You really did surprise me. In fact, I thought that when I discussed my break in trust during play [...]

Master’s mother sent me a belated Christmas gift. She has never met me and didn’t know about me until after Master was here with me. I got a ruby and diamond ring. It’s simply beautiful.
His sister asked him on IM if he was going to marry me. Gosh we’ve not even gotten that far, besides [...]

Things are going well in Master’s house. We’ve been working through my issues that occurred this weekend and the feelings I have, the feelings I don’t have and the continuous issue with trust. I’ve done a lot of thought on it myself since this past weekend and what I can say now is that I [...]

Yesterday was a day from hell and a clawing my way back up to life here on earth. Master and I had plans to play. No different than any other time. Those of you that read my blog regularly know that sometimes we just don’t get to it, other times we have our problems. This [...]

You’d think that with all the wonderful things in my life that I’d be looking forward to Christmas and the joy it brings, the unity of family and the wonders of the season. However, when I think of Christmas it’s depressing, lonely and sad. Perhaps it’s because we are staying at home this year, or [...]

I’ll never understand why my libido waxes and wanes so aggressively. Just last week I was insatiable, to the point that my sex was throbbing and aching and I was begging to be left alone. Now I’m even anti touching unless it’s a hug or a kiss. I just can’t explain it. I’m really disturbed [...]

I hope everyone’s Thanksgiving went well. Master and I spent a nice day at home with no work, no stress (other than my usual cooking stress) and it was great. It would have been better had my pussy not still been sore from 3 days ago when Master and I went all out with so [...]

This Week’s Picks
To Tell or Not to Tell… (http://lipstickexplosion.com)
“Jane Falling claims it’s best not to tell, and she writes, ‘my identity as a prostitute is too serious a secret to trust with near-strangers.’”
Anti-Anti-Pornography, Part II (http://www.teen-porn-site.com/blog)
“One question I would like to ask them is - were there any rape or child abuse cases *before* the [...]

- Pick your birth month
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under an lj-cut
I was born in…
OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. [...]

This essay is a pretty old one, it was part of a punishment for not shaving… almost 3 years ago. It still is very true for me though, so I’m sharing it here. It’s making me think about how I’m following/not following the rules I have now and how I can work harder at succeeding [...]

Dated 9-20-06
Dear Master,
This has been a very hard week. I don’t feel I’m living up to your expectations. I don’t feel like I’m working hard enough to fix the things that are wrong with me.
Blowjobs. Yes they are hard for me. They have always been that way. I have always thought of them as a [...]

Dated: 9-14-06
Dear Master,
I’ve gone to writing in a paper journal so that I can try to be more open and honest and so that I don’t try to write for an audience. This is just for you.
I’m still just shocked about last night. I honestly felt that you were ending things. When you cried with [...]

What, in your eyes, makes a person submissive?
A submissive is a man or woman that for whatever reason chooses to follow the directions, adjust to behavior modifications and submit to the power of another. These things can include but are not limited to sexual submission, domestic service, platonic recession of power, work environment with a [...]

What, in your eyes, makes a person Dominant?
A Dominant carries specific qualities for me that express who he is to the submissive and to the community. These qualities are those that I look for in any person that says they are Dominant.
The first one of importance to me is self control. A Dominant shouldn’t upset [...]