BDSM is Love

Signs of abuse come in many forms. Is there abuse here?
Man and a woman are at a restaurant. The man barely says a word to the server, keeping his eyes down and only acknowledging when the woman says something to him. He does not order his own food and waits to eat until the woman [...]

I have had the mother of all stressful days today. I actually spent the morning at work in a conference room crying because I was at my breaking point. My boss was on the way to do damage control and help me out. He’s such a great guy and seems to understand my personality perfectly. [...]

Sunday night… after anal sex and Master said he was worn out. I had an itch. It was an itch for some bondage sex. Oh god I wanted it. I wrote about my desire in my Letter to him, which he promptly read and turned to me with a semi-hard cock and a grin.
“So you [...]

1. If you had to choose being blind or deaf, what would you choose and why?
If I had to choose I’d rather blind. While I’d be terrified of the loss of my sight I know that I’d be more terrified if I never heard my Master’s voice again, the sound of his timbre and the [...]

My boss called me up this morning and asked if he could come by. I said sure, I didn’t have any fear of anything wrong, and who would say no to your boss? Well he did my annual review. I did exceptionally well for only being with the company for 7 months (annual reviews [...]

This week marked a landmark in my weight loss struggles. I reached my lowest weight in 5 years. I do hope that I didn’t gain it all back but will have to wait till next week to weigh again to know for sure. I was very happy to say the least and hopeful that I [...]

It appears that all this time I thought I was pleasing Master ultimately lead to me being displeasing. Allow me to explain.
Upon becoming Master’s own he gave me the rule that I was not to come without permission. One that I have stuck to as a sacrament. I have never broken that rule. For me [...]

I’m still waiting. Waiting to hear if the client of my work contract wants to up my hours to full time. They had a meeting today where this was a key part of the conversation. My boss has not called me, it’s late and I don’t think I’ll hear anything until Monday. This is torture. [...]

Now that I have my rules laid out, I have to try to start following them. I know that the next few weeks are going to be rocky as I learn them, get used to them and be constantly reminded of things he has initiated. While I am more than ready, I’m also very nervous [...]

“I want you to promise that you will try to be as good as you were today, everyday.”
“I promise I will try to be good everyday Master.”
Master has honored me today, I have honored him. He was full of pride for me, I’ve been good. He told me that I have changed and I’m not [...]

This isn’t going to be a long post, but I just wanted to share a really good essay that I discovered on a friend’s website. It has moved me to thinking the past week or so and hopefully will continue to move me to something good in the near future. It’s titled “Two Words” and [...]

Dear Master,
This is the first letter I’ve written you that you haven’t had to read it in pen and ink first. You requested that half of my journal entries be handwritten, because they are more personal that way and the letters have developed out of that. I want you to know that these letters will [...]

It happened yet again. I can’t even remember all of the heated discussion however I can remember the spark that set it all off.
Wednesday I asked Master to help me with a bit of code that I didn’t know how to do. I had gone online and someone had offered their script for it but [...]

So about 2 weeks ago I had an epiphany with the help of kaya’s wise words. Submission is hard work. The fact that I had constantly thought that Master wasn’t dominant enough turned the tables to I wasn’t submissive enough. I admit that it’s not a natural thing in me, and while many that may [...]

It dawned on me, or rather it was explained to me in wonderful terms, that my submission isn’t a one way street. I had constantly thought that I’d be submissive if Master was dominant. I questioned why I wasn’t getting reprimanded or reminded that I wasn’t following the rules that he set up. kaya made [...]

For some people pain is pleasurable. For me it certainly is. I’m terrible at discussing the how’s and whys so I’m defering to an essay from Pyschology Today:

Everyone loves word games, so here’s the first one for the Blogathon.
It’s called Change 1 letter and is pretty basic.
example:
a 6 letter word ambles
change 1 letter..so new word = becalm
Rules:
1. You can rearrange the letters.
2. You can only change one letter.
Get it? Now each game will have a theme. This game’s theme is: excitment. All [...]

From Kindlings:
What words do you associate immediately with the following words?
- fear
Failure. I fear failure at all things, but moreso at failing Master. I want to please him at everything and when I don’t do well, I fear his disappointment. So maybe it’s not failure I fear but his disappointment at failing.
- doubt
The uncertain future [...]

I have a job! It’s a part time job but one that will certainly help us pay the bills. My new boss even said that he was so impressed with my interview that he considered not holding any more interviews and calling me right up. That would have been fine with me! I will be [...]

I would have been instructed to write in my blog yesterday had the interenet been available. It is finally up today and so I am backposting this entry that I handwrote yesterday. Thank you to everyone that is sending me support and kind words in this. It truely does help me stay focused and know [...]